Skip to main content

July 8, 2022 | Serena's diary

  "It's okay to feel hurt and upset, but don't hurt yourself or others" is such a line of bullshit. Why should I not hurt others if I'm being hurt? What difference does it make if I'm hurting myself or someone else is doing it for me? And, most importantly, why should anyone's feelings matter more to my loved ones than mine?

I poured out my heart to Xander and it feels like he'd rather do anything but see me. I hate feeling neglected like this and I can't just turn it off.

Maybe Luci and I should go away together somewhere. If They're not around, it means I get him all to myself again. He's really good to me.

Yeah. If Xander has better things to do than go out with me or even talk to me, why should I wait around for him? Luci and I are overdue for that rafting trip, anyway. We can plan another trip for the group, since I know Nathaniel and George want to come, and maybe Syria, Blaine, and Maze as well. And then tomorrow, Luci and I can go bumper car racing and dancing.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

April 23, 2022 | Serena's diary

   I love that Sigefrid loves cuddling ♥ He's not the type to admit to it, but whenever we sit together, it's like we  have  to be touching. He's also not bothered by me doing my language lessons in his presence. In fact, he loves learning about other cultures as much as I do. So cuddling in bed with him and using Duolingo together is a pretty perfect start to our day... after the sex, of course ♥ Sometimes he automatically translates my lessons out loud, from memory, so we're brushing up on languages together. That will help with expanding our international syndicate.
Post a Comment
Read more

September 17, 2022 | Nate x Royce – First Meeting

 Nate to Royce: "Didn't know anyone else was in here."   Shit! That fucking door! He really needed to change the damn locks sometime soon because this was getting annoying. Luckily though he'd merely been checking his new hardware, that had gotten infected now twice. Dropping his shirt and tossing the bloodied gauze into the trash he shot a glare towards Nathaniel. "Yeah well.... Someone was in here. Move." He half growled to the other male who was currently in the doorway of the bathroom..   "That looks nasty. Do you need any help?" Nate asked. He wasn't exactly accustomed to helping other people, but it was considered polite to ask, regardless of how rude this guy was being.   "You a fuckin ripperdoc now to? Or a doctor even?" Royce snarked rather immediately as he glanced over his shoulder long enough to glance at Nathaniel then moved to kick a rolling stool that sat at the back of the massive garage over closed to a rather tall lo...
Post a Comment
Read more

October 17, 2023 | Trent x Sebastian Flashback

    [in high school, after Trent turned him down] Yeahhhh I’m going to have to retcon the hell out of what I’d already written in order to make this work. Originally, Trent had had no idea Sebastian had feelings for him. Then as their dynamics evolved, I decided he had an inkling but didn’t know how deeply it went. Now… ehehe… I don’t even know, man. But then again, I don’t  have  to canonize this. I also cleaned this up a hell of a lot, because I feel like at this point, Sebastian’s kinks have been established well enough that no-one needs to read about them over  and over  and over again. Also I’m tired of my editor making “yuck” noises whenever they come up  🙄 Also, contrast this with how Troy handled being rejected romantically by Aemond. I like to think I did decently at showcasing different reactions by different characters.   Trent’s reasoning was that he didn’t want them to end up like his parents: whirlwind relationship in high school, m...
Post a Comment
Read more