Sometimes I have episodes where I forget that my relationships with Xander and Sigefrid are stable now. I'll run into their arms sobbing and frantically ask if they still need me. Then I'll be embarrassed, because I remember they're not with me because they need me. They love me. I love them, too. I don't know what I'd do without them. They're patient and tender with me, but I feel guilty for needing so much reassurance. Why? Trent has never made me feel bad for my needy ways, nor have Nathaniel or Luci. I shouldn't be like this, so why am I? What if I drive them away because 'm so consumed by my need for them?
I love that Sigefrid loves cuddling ♥ He's not the type to admit to it, but whenever we sit together, it's like we have to be touching. He's also not bothered by me doing my language lessons in his presence. In fact, he loves learning about other cultures as much as I do. So cuddling in bed with him and using Duolingo together is a pretty perfect start to our day... after the sex, of course ♥ Sometimes he automatically translates my lessons out loud, from memory, so we're brushing up on languages together. That will help with expanding our international syndicate.
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