Sometimes I have episodes where I forget that my relationships with Xander and Sigefrid are stable now. I'll run into their arms sobbing and frantically ask if they still need me. Then I'll be embarrassed, because I remember they're not with me because they need me. They love me. I love them, too. I don't know what I'd do without them. They're patient and tender with me, but I feel guilty for needing so much reassurance. Why? Trent has never made me feel bad for my needy ways, nor have Nathaniel or Luci. I shouldn't be like this, so why am I? What if I drive them away because 'm so consumed by my need for them?
“How does it make me 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 ? Are you fucking serious right now? This is what I’m paying for from an internationally-renowned psychiatrist?” Trent ranted, pacing the tastefully-furnished office and running a hand through his sleek bronze hair. “My marriage ended before it even began because my fiancée was jealous of my best friend. My other best friend was brainwashed into marrying this guy who’s jealous of 𝘮𝘦 . I had an actual social group for the first time in my life and we went from being a fun group of friends to probably THE most toxic couple-versus-couple, oh and let me just add that most of the people in the couples don’t even 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 each other! Let’s see. Faustus resents that he’s been blackmailed on pain of death to marry his wife. Nathaniel hates how controlling George has become. I loved Rebecca to death, almost literally, but I’ve had to face up to the fact that that girl is a mess, which 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 lead us to Serena’s situation—Sebastian’s situation? I don’t k...
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