I got a little duck plush today, and some more yarn.
Duckie seems to dislike every man I take an interest in outside of our little group. I reminded him today that he had the chance to marry me months ago, chose not to, and chose to let Rebitcha's feelings dictate whether he should remain with Nathaniel and me. If he wanted say over whom I date, or more precisely, fuck, he shouldn't have let me let him go. Sigefrid is good to me. He sleeps well with me beside him. He wants me for drugs, sex, and comfort, but what's important is that he wants me.
This is about a man I don't want to be romantically involved with, but it does still sadden me that Bloodhair no longer wants to be friends. He almost seemed to hate me when I last went to see him, but I remember us getting along perfectly well when we met. He liked my eyes. I am very proud of my eyes. My hair and lashes may be extensions, and I may have to keep myself in ruffle tops and chastity belts, but my eyes, at least, are real. The fact that that is what he noticed about me does endear him to me. The fact that he listens to an ex's opinion rather than getting to know me himself, less so.
Xandy surprised me tonight. Luci has been asking him to come to bed every night, after I've had the chance to let down my hair again and put on a dress and panties, to make Xandy more comfortable feeding from me after Luci has had his turn in bed and bathed me. He's been leaving it as a suggestion, but Xandy does join us and cuddle with me, perhaps because he fears Luci will compel him if he does not. Well, tonight after feeding and cuddling for a while, Xandy made love to me. He started by kissing the veins along my neck down to where my dress starts, then he actually asked Luci where we keep the lubricant and-- I can feel myself blushing now that I'm thinking about it. My vampire loves me! He's claimed to before, but events leading up to him moving in with us did make me wonder. Obviously, I cuddled right into him and relaxed almost immediately. I love him, and I missed him, so much! Even after he moved in, I didn't feel as close to him as I did when we bonded. But now I do, because I know he loves me, too! ♥
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